Discouraged

Hello, I have just been certified as a yoga teacher at the 200-hour level. My certification is from a local studio. I chose them for convenience sake as they are less than a mile from my house and the structure agreed with my life right now. The training has been a real internal struggle for me. I have been practicing Sivananda yoga for twenty years and found that my understanding and experience of yoga is very different from that of my teachers. They seem to view asana practice as the whole of yoga and pretty much view it as exercise. I excelled in the class (solely because of my past experience) and they have asked me to teach on their staff. I don't think I can bring myself to teach there. I certainly am capable of teaching a good yoga class but the way they ask me to teach feels wrong. I cannot bring myself to view power yoga/vinyasa yoga as even being yoga at all...same thing with Bikram...although he seems more in touch than the vinyasa/power people. I guess I am just feeling discouraged and down. I feel that real yoga is becomming lost in the world today...that we have teachers who have no understanding of yoga, teaching other teachers, on and on. I know there must be like-mined people out there but I'm afraid they're in the mionority. I so want to see yoga understood an embraced in its entirety for what it is and I would like to contribute to that. When I teach "mindful/spiritual" asana class the students seem to receive it well, but the owner/teachers don't get it. I think I am going to Sivananda TTC in October. I'm not sure why I'm writing this...maybe just looking for support and my space in the world. Thanks so much for listening. Namaste.

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